Casualty – Crying over Glen

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Series 32 : Episode 30 – If you have not seen this episode then click back now: SPOILER ALERT (YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!)

Just when you think that Robyn will have a happy ending…. BOOM!! The plot thickens.

What got to me in this episode was the circumstances surrounding how Glen passed away, it reminded me of losing people in my life. I am a big believer when it comes to people having a choice in where they die, although I fully understand it is not always possible. I admire the BBC for how they portrayed Glens’ death; they made the room special, a little family together in the room in their pyjamas and dressing gowns. I cried inside and almost outside, but I do not like crying in front of people so managed to hold it back. I would have loved the chance to say goodbye to those I lost and be there for their last moments. It hurts me so much that I did not get that final ‘Goodbye’, this is why the episode meant so much to me.

I thank Owain Arthur (Glen Thomas) and Amanda Henderson (Robyn Miller) along with the BBC for the way the story was presented.

Self Care Developments of the week

I have been forcing myself into certain situations this week. Scary times but this week my accomplishments include;

  • Going to the Doctors,
  • Meeting up with my Sister who I haven’t seen in about a year,
  • Going to the Dentist for the first time in 5-8 years,
  • Gone to the shop during the day,
  • Rang for some support from a local service.

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I sit here on my bed writing this, I am tired, worn out and know there is a lot I should be doing, my days over the last few months have been getting darker and darker but I have made some progress into looking after myself.

I have also been making an effort to fill in my journal, it is a 365-day book I bought before Christmas and I said I will put feelings/drawings/events or whatever I want every day, although I am missing some days, but I am making progress with that too. I had a yummy Easter egg, that is only half eaten at the moment!! Salted Caramel. I love Cadbury eggs but restrained from getting them this year as I end up eating way too much, although I did buy two little bunnies in Lidl and I am proud to say they have not yet been eaten. Although I do need to confess I am drinking way too much fizzy soft drinks (I do not drink hot drinks so I use soft drinks as an excuse to get caffeine).

I have 3 assignments left for University, well until the new academic year starts in October but I am looking forward to getting them completed and sent off (not looking forward to weeks of waiting to hear if assignments are passed, if I do not get certain marks for them I fail the whole year). Whilst I am nowhere near 100% with my health, I need to use the time well to care for myself and get better. I am looking forward to developing this site and things to come.