Mental Health Awareness Letters – 27th May 2018

As May is Mental Health Awareness Month, I had an idea to write a letter each day to a person, or group of people that have had an impact on my own personal health. The first portion of the month has been delayed, however I hope that I will catch up and there will be a daily post. Thank You for taking the time to read these and I appreciate any comments or support you can provide on each post.

Please remember that if you are struggling with your health, both physical or mental, there may be some triggers in these letters-please seek support if you find these letters trigger any distress. Look after yourself!!

Letter 27 – To those stupid numbers!! (I have no idea if the % in the featured image is right but I needed a fact so there you go – this is a huge step for me as it is an odd number!!)

I hate odd numbers!! You may know this about me or you may not!!

I started counting things when I was in my teens and had anorexia, at one point I counted rice grains!! It was that extreme and really hard to live with – especially when it was hidden from others, my best friend noticed I was thinner and some of the girls in school said I looked good when getting changed for P.E at school (I had gone from about 10 stone to 8 stone at this point in a couple of weeks). I almost got caught out once at school when I spent the lunch in a teacher’s office and she asked what I had for lunch and I said nothing, she left me some of her fruit and said I had to eat something, I think I ate an apple but I left the rest for her as I felt so bad.

I like things to be even and it really gets to me if things aren’t even, my car volume and TV volumes are the easiest things to control and I feel a fire burn inside when I do not have things in even numbers- I mean if there are odd numbers I have learnt to adjust,  I can cut them equally so 3 items would turn into 6 halves – but I do freak out if they aren’t all the same size.

Talk about frustration!

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Mental Health Awareness Letters – 26th May 2018

As May is Mental Health Awareness Month, I had an idea to write a letter each day to a person, or group of people that have had an impact on my own personal health. The first portion of the month has been delayed, however I hope that I will catch up and there will be a daily post. Thank You for taking the time to read these and I appreciate any comments or support you can provide on each post.

Please remember that if you are struggling with your health, both physical or mental, there may be some triggers in these letters-please seek support if you find these letters trigger any distress. Look after yourself!!

Letter 26 – My Joints and Muscles

I suffer from widespread chronic pain, I have no idea why and I can only identify a couple of triggers to this pain, but most of the time I have no idea why it happens.

Most of the time it is my shoulders, knees and hips but a lot of the time it is every single joint, every single muscle and just moving to change position is agonising.

This has a huge impact on my mental health and makes me feel useless at times. Especially when I want to go an exercise or actually feel in the mood to get out, yet I cannot even put my socks or shoes on.

I would appreciate if anybody has any advice on how you manage pain.

 

Mental Health Awareness Letters – 25th May 2018

As May is Mental Health Awareness Month, I had an idea to write a letter each day to a person, or group of people that have had an impact on my own personal health. The first portion of the month has been delayed, however I hope that I will catch up and there will be a daily post. Thank You for taking the time to read these and I appreciate any comments or support you can provide on each post.

Please remember that if you are struggling with your health, both physical or mental, there may be some triggers in these letters-please seek support if you find these letters trigger any distress. Look after yourself!!

Letter 25 – To the upcoming Summer and no University

I really do not know how I am going to cope over the Summer with no University – although it will give me time to breathe and prepare the box room for studies commencing in the Autumn. I need to knock down a little box in the corner of the room to see what is under it and then rebuild it and hopefully make it smaller – if not I will turn it into some sort of unit.

Anyway, I am also doing some non-university courses that will help me understand CBT, train to teach and deliver training and counselling skills level 3 and 4. Definitely enough to get me through the Summer.

Although from the end of this month – Mid July I will be like this;

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Any tips for this anxious time – made worse by anxiety and the inability to remain calm when waiting for results??

 

Mental Health Awareness Letters – 24th May 2018

As May is Mental Health Awareness Month, I had an idea to write a letter each day to a person, or group of people that have had an impact on my own personal health. The first portion of the month has been delayed, however I hope that I will catch up and there will be a daily post. Thank You for taking the time to read these and I appreciate any comments or support you can provide on each post.

Please remember that if you are struggling with your health, both physical or mental, there may be some triggers in these letters-please seek support if you find these letters trigger any distress. Look after yourself!!

Letter 24 – What Makes Mental Health Worse? Some warning signs with some help from the internet.

Today I decided to be daring and go to ‘Dr Google’  and simply search ‘What makes mental health worse’ – I was interested to see what similarities I may have to others.

I came across this page on www.psychologytoday.com that provides their 5 ‘warning signs of Mental Health Risk’ and I found that I can relate to all 5. Now everyone is different of course but Psychology Today listed the below warning signs;

  • A Change in Personality. If someone is acting like a very different person, or not acting or feeling like themself, this is a warning sign.

This is a big one for people with mental health conditions. Please keep a watchful eye on yourself, or for those you care for. To look for any changes in personality.

  • Uncharacteristic Anxiety, Anger, or Moodiness.

My moods are all over the place and it does not take much for me to feel angry, however, a lot of it is with reason but unfortunately, I cannot go into it. I don’t get PMS due to my PCOS and amenorrhea so PMS has never been an issue. But on occasions, my anxiety flares up quite badly with no reason what so ever, sometimes there is the slightest thing that sets me off and then it is a downhill slope from there, but I have not been able to identify the exact reason for my anxiety – this frustrates some people.

  • Social Withdrawal and Isolation.

I very rarely leave the house, I like to shop at night when there are very few people in the shop, I use scan as you shop and I hate it when there is a problem and I have to call someone over or have a random check on my shopping. I do not go out or go to parties and the thought of being seen by people from work during work time makes me feel worse, another reason why I shop at night (If I can afford it) I feel bad that I am at home all day when they have to go to work.

  • Lack of Self-Care or Risky Behaviors.

Mental Health definitely brings lack of self-care and risky behaviours for me, however, the risky behaviours are very mild. I hate how I do not look after myself as much as I should because of my mental health, washing, getting dressed and eating/exercise can be near impossible. (You may find it disgusting but it is the reality).

  • A Sense of Hopelessness or Feeling Overwhelmed.

This is definitely something I have been feeling lately. The work situation and not working does not help, however being at work was equally overwhelming.

 

Like I said above, this isn’t the case and each individual has their own unique warning signs. Identifying them can be hard and they are not set in stone – things change!!