We have been bestowed with a prince!!

Today flags are flying to celebrate a new prince.

Congratulations to Kate, Duchess of Cambridge and Prince William; The Duke of Cambridge – And of course to Prince George and Princess Charlotte!!

It is also exciting that Princess Charlotte, whose position in line to the throne will not change with the birth of her little brother; due to a change in the law, has made history.

Screen Shot 2018-04-24 at 13.29.12
“Kensington Palace Twitter Account”

I have not added any pictures of the new Prince as I feel it is not my right to share them, but if you browse the news websites and the Kensington Palace twitter account, then there are plenty of images there for you to see. The Prince is beautiful, you can see mam, dad, brother and sister in the young Prince. Beautiful children and a beautiful family.

We have yet to hear about the name that has been given to the new Prince, I wonder if Prince George had a different name, would this Prince be called George? He was born on St George’s Day after all? George, Charlotte and ……..

What name will be bestowed to the new prince?? I cannot wait to find out!!

Sertraline oh Sertraline….

So having spent the last two days in the bed I have got myself up and retreated to the sofa to watch tv with my pooch and wife.

So I have not left the house but it is cold and the effort to get dressed is too much.

I have been thinking about my Sertraline, whilst there have been several days or events I have attended and I am less anxious or OCD symptoms have subsided- I find myself having more bad days and a cycle or really happy days where the world is my oyster, I can sign up for races and challenges and do loads of Uni work along with extra courses and enquiring about new courses to do. But then everything comes crashing down, sometimes for no reason at all and a couple of times something has triggered a downward spiral.

I saw the CMHT and have been discharged from their service after the assessment for re-referral from the GP if I need them. Although they have suggested some treatment but no point referring until I have moved as it is different health trusts. They have also suggested my medication is changed- saw a GP but not my usual Doctor as she wasn’t working but my dose has been increased to the max dose of 200mg to try and if then there is no improvement then we will need to switch medications. I had over two months worth of tablets here so I would rather try the high dose rather than waste the tablets by returning them to be destroyed by the pharmacy.

I am really weary and nervous about switching do a different medication because I don’t know what to expect. I am scared to side effects like my hair breaking and falling out that Citalopram caused. I’m scared it will affect my work, relationship or driving, along with fertility and weight. I am just scared.

I am positive about the work I am doing to secure a future in Mental Health for myself but I feel my own mental health is an unsolved mystery and I don’t want to live like this anymore. I want to be happy and I want to teach; stand up in a room and present, attend parties without heart palpitations and sweating like I have had a bucket of water thrown over me. I want to get up and get out and not hide in the house and do nothing, or think about ways to hurt myself or force weight off or even give up and pile weight on.

Although on a positive note I start bereavement counselling this month. After so many losses in the past 14 years and not grieving or speaking about them I think it is the right time to start healing those wounds. But only time will tell.